Sunday, August 12, 2007

Entering Motherhood

Entering motherhood...hmmm...so what does this look like anyway?
So, I'm huge now, my feet hurt, I'm addicted to blizzards from D.Q. and I'm up all night using the "ladies room." But, I must say, this has been an amazing journey thus far.
The miracle of life growing right before my eyes, not to mention everyone else's, is incredible! What confirmation of the magnificence of our Creator. His ways are truly unfathomable, utterly beyond our wildest imaginations. Aside from feeling the baby move for the first time, I think the most incredible moment for me thus far was at our 2nd ultrasound.
I'll begin by telling you that the technician could not find the baby's heart beat at our first ultrasound. We had to wait a week and come back to make sure I was not threatening a miscarriage. That week was trying to my faith and helped me realize that this baby belongs to God, that I have no control over its life whatsoever, and that I can see that as a good thing if I so choose. Why? Because God is greater and a far wiser, more reliable, more loving caretaker than I could ever hope to be.
Anyway, so I prayed earnestly that the heartbeat would show at the second ultrasound and that the baby would be doing great. I prayed that the technician would give a good report (even though they aren't supposed to report anything, but to let the doctor do that part). I was doing alright until I got to the room where the ultrasounds are performed and then the anxiety started to well up. I excused myself to the restroom and prayed one more time to this effect "Lord, please help this baby be alive and just fine and help me not to worry, but to trust You."
I walked out and met the technician who, by no coincidence I am sure, was named Grace. She was so kind and sweet spirited I felt the tension inside fade almost immediately. She did the ultrasound and excitedly reported that there was definately a heartbeat and all seemed to be just fine. Turns out the former ultrasound was taken too soon. They thought I was further along in my pregnancy. So praises be to the Lord!
Do you have any stories to share where God worked in your circumstances to stretch your faith and show His faithfulness? Or, perhaps you have some advice for a new Mom, my ears are all open. :)

2 comments:

Carleen said...

Serena, you are right in saying that our children belong to God. Remembering that our Lord is sovereign is so helpful throughout our children's lives, since there will be many times that we don't have control. Giving our children to God builds our faith - do we trust Him or not? Thanks for reminding us that God is great, wise, reliable, loving, and desires the best for our children.

Anonymous said...

Congratulations! The simple task of getting pregnant is a miracle to most women. To be truely thankful for every kick, crave, and stretch mark is true commitment that we are God's special tool for bringing these precious beings into this world. That is the "mother's glow" that is often described from pregnant women. God is Great!